"don't worry.
it might be stormy and raining now"
"but........"
"the shine will come. it will"
and so, im waiting for the sun to rise and shine me up. a couple days ago was like a bunch of worst day for me. i'v been so stressed out with all the problems that seems to chase me all around and i can't even have the chance to get away. know what i mean?
it's sucks really. to see yourself crying.
i even vow to myself to stop crying. but, how can i stop my emotions?
you know. . i literally tried to be strong. i tried so hard. but when the problems came and hit me up straight to my face. i got weaker. it was hard to keep your feelings bottled up inside. you want to talk about it with someone but you just can't. you can feel you chest is hurt. it was like there was something burning inside it. the pain. .it was so hurt. you can feel yourself was bleeding so much. and i can't help it.
i can't help myself.
so i cried.
alone.
sometimes, i really though to myself sometimes that i was so effing pathetic and weak.
am i?
i don't have the answer.
do you?
4 comments:
I'm sorry kalau aku takde kena mengena but...I'm not sure if this is the answer, but eh, I know how if feels like to rasa that diri ni pathetic and it feels so bad sampai even your chest feels so tight and hurtful, literally. So I thought to myself, why do I even exist. Then I figured, at the very least, even if no one gives a fcking shit about me, I need my own self. Sometimes, aku kena bajet aku ni banyak gila good qualities, sometimes, bukan nak riak, but we need to tell ourselves that we are so damn nice and sweet and don't teragak-agak to puji diri sendiri. Later you will find another reason to move on. You need yourself! XD
Like, bila kau mandi, kau tengah selamatkan orang from satu drpd pencemaran bau, be proud muehehe and sorry komen panjang sangat ._.
Shin, I just want to say, you will become a monster if you don't cry. A certain someone told me that, "when humans cry and their tears dry up, they become monsters, dried up inside"
So, don't stop crying when you feel like it. Because sometimes, those kind of feelings, make you an awesome human being...
Don't be like me,
I rarely cry, it's like, the feeling is somewhat trapped deep down inside and I can't let it out. So, I laughed. I laugh with pride and arrogance to survive. So, when you cry, just CRY.
Trimas kalian T____________T
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