mission #2 - make your holiday more effective

i used to tell myself,


why does life is effing bored? i mean why?
here's my (daily-ah-so-bored-punya-routine)

wake up.
turn on the tv.
*nothing-that-really-caught-these-pair-of-eyes*
turn off the tv.
turn on the laptop
*facebooking*
*twittering*
*instagramming*
*k-drama-ing*
*end up getting bored*
turn off the laptop
lying on the cushion
take out the tab
turn on the tab
*play candy crush-farm heroes saga-pou-and-end-up-getting-bored-again-ugh*
turn off the tab
sleep
and...........

keep on doing the same above all over again.


"oh how about eating?"
"well i eat ALL THE TIME so just ignore it"


see?
that's how my daily routine is, literally.
lu kasi tolak la buat kerja rumah bagai tu since i was like living alone dkt rumah so nothing much to do.
and kalau ada pun, bila my adik adik balik baru la macam hameko rumah berselerak tapi tu cer lain.
cer yang sekarang.
cer bila cheq duduk rumah sorang sorang and yeah-----------my lifeless life.


but actually;
you know wht?
i'v been thinking abt this a lot, like rlly. alot.
and i'm guessing that it's not abt my boring life actually.
it's about me.
me.


yeah me.

seriously me?

jap..... why me??????

me?!?!??!??!!??!?!


i mean why me?




"sebab ko tak reti nak hidup dalam hidup ni."

ko paham?

which means, kalau translate dalam english, bunyinya berbunyi kayak gini;


I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE.



um yeah.


ok kenapa tetiba boleh tetiba fikir mcm?
al-kisahnya,

so, i stalked this one friend (my classmates) haha punya blog. yes, i love to read though (abt other's people punya life heh) and actually i felt so ashamed of myself. look, she's rarely on her twitter-even facebook. i can count with my so gemuk puya fingers ni berapa kali je nampak batang hidung dia dekat tl ke news feed ke apa ke. but then, bila baca blog dia kan;

"ok..... dia berkebun. bestnya!!"
"emm, banyak jgk dia search pasal scholarship bagai.........." (tak pernah terfikir ok nak search psl benda alah tu) T^T (useless)
"oh......she did applied for those work?"
"and....... (ni paling mcm terpukul)
dia dah habis hafal 3 surah dah? and now she's on her way to make it four?" (speechless) (sedih) (nak nangis)









what i want to tell you guys is that,
i rlly need to learn to live my life.
sometimes, bila rasa bosan-taktahu-nak-buat-apa,
maybe sebab hati tu dah banyak sangat buat benda lagha tu yg rasa kosong
lifeless.
maybe if i take one step ahead to make a change for myself.
you know,
use the time properly.
do something that makes benefit to me.
i won't be regretting my holiday kan kan?
dah mungkin cuti ni sepatutnya diambil peluang untuk mendekatkan diri kepada-Nya;
sebab masa bila lagi?
nanti dah start belajar semua-maybe time tu dah tak seperti time cuti sekarang ni.
kan?
(even mmg macam susah sbb gua ni pun tahap malas tu menggunung u____u)
but............

i should give a try kan?

so;

1) instead of twittering, facebooking etc how abt you search something yg lebih berfaedah?
search scholarship ke educational programmes ke apa apa ke...... janji ada la jgk benda bermanfaat kan?

2) jgn nak melangut dekat rumah. baik ko try tgk rumah ni sepah ke tidak vacuum ke lap cermin ke mop lantai ke apa ke.........sapu rumah ke haaaa... jadi la orang gaji tak berbayar pun ikhlaskan diri mu takpe la kan? (pahala gak dapat) (nanti mama jgk bangga lepastu takde la bebel lagi kan u_u)

3) kurangkan benda lagha, banyakkan amalan ehem. (T^T)

4) driving class. jpj test (must........ wajib lulus!!!!!!!!!!!)

5) habiskan drama korea my love from another star eh eh. hahaahahahahahahhahahahahaha. (ok sharina rasa nak lempang)



anyways, do pray for me x

and
(for those lifeless jobless people out here like me) pls.

never lose hope (y)
and keep on making yr holiday much much more effective.
peace.